Laugh It Off So I Don't Feel It

what has happened to you.
i know you havent been replying as much lately and yeah i get that, cuz mostly i talk a lot of crap.
but with what you were saying tonight like what is going on.

i know you used to be exactly like me. in fact you were probably even worse and i can admit now, i went down with you just by being there. but you still gave me something to hold onto. some kinda hope for something or other. you were the one that was always there for me and when i went through all that fucking shit back then id be able to come to you any fucking time and youd be there. you have me the most anyone ever has before. and im a much better person now because of you. i owe you so much.
there were extremely bad times too and i was around for all that, both of our bad times. but still i knew i could count on you.

now youve moved away to what seems like a better life. some perfect thing with the man of your dreams that whisked you away to it.
now what is it? because youve gone we just dont talk? nothing matters anymore? i havent really moved on from what i was back then, maybe emotionally, im not a fucking wreck that doesnt know whats going on anymore. but mentally im still the same. i still drink all the time. i still cant organize my life for shit. i havent got those friends back and i dont think i ever will.

maybe youre just over it now youre engaged, now you want kids, now youre living a domesticated life with a job and husband and whatever else youve got there. what the fuck happened to that crazy punk rocker i used to know and love? it wasnt that long ago you were trying to do really fucking bad things. i would have never let you do that if i was there but all you had was a pitiful slack of a boyfriend who was pretty much your fucking doormat. he couldve stopped you but all he got was "that serious tone" in his voice.
what was it they called you? moderately severe? some shit that contradicted itself like that.
i was there through all that shit.
just because im the same person doesnt mean you can get all self righteous snob.