way back when

this song just came on my mp3 player, it always used to make me cry. every single fucking time. but lately ive gotten over the feelings that came with it and now when i hear it its just memories, it still manages to set me in a mood. sort of reminiscing about everything that happened back then.

we were quite bad, we just got boozed, fucked around, played old 90s songs. but this certain one set me off on an emotional drunk ramble/break down once.
now ever since then the songs reminded me of her, its a fucking epic song though.

after about a month, we got too fucked up. i would sit around and just cry and slash myself up. she would cry and go to my brother. id get angry, id smash things. lets not go there.
then id go to jill. she hated that. she hated her.

sure i was messing around with both of them at the same time and they knew it and they got angry and jealous but nothing was ever real. or serious. well i wasnt seeing anyone but yeah.

so then she started hating me. i do feel bad because i feel like i kinda corrupted her. buying her booze. showing her a life shed never seen before. we had fun. it was kinda surreal. and i do miss her now, just miss talking at least. she was 2 years younger than me which i guess is why i felt like i was the bad influence.

but whatever, im a little drunk, im gonna stop talking now. i feel like playing this on repeat all day.