dreammm

i had a really strange dream last night. i dont like the ones where someones trying to attack me and no matter what i do to them i dont seem to hurt them and they never go away. i was so relieved to wake up, not that it was a nightmare, just that i was getting so emotional in the dream and angry that i couldnt do anything it was really stressful.

at first i was part of this family but it was back in some olden day times, i had a big slop of a father who was really angry and fat and gross, i dont remember my mother but i had a little sister who was a baby, and my father would hit her and swing her around and throw her into the walls and i remember being really angry and sad about that but i couldnt do anything. then my sister was a piece of paper which my father folded up and that was hurting her, so i took her and held her to keep her safe.
he left and she was back into a human but wasnt a baby was a bit older, we were staring into the fire which was in a big oven-like thing, but old styles still. we were talking about something and i was trying to get her mind off our father beating her, but somehow i was like in tune with her because i shared her memories and she kept on getting flashes of him and all the abuse so i was getting them too.

then everything changed and my father and mother turned into these other people and we were all in a really beautiful forest and my father was building train tracks and my mother was playing piano next to him and theyd been doing that the past 12 years. my sister wasnt in the picture anymore but my father was still abusive towards me. a group of men came along and started to rough my up father for taking to long to build the tracks, because itd been 12 years and still not finished and it was only this small portion of forest bit that it was in, they said he had been wasting time doing nothing and had spent their money on a piano for my mother to sit there playing all these years. but then it wasnt my mother it was a woman named priscilla and i remember feeling a strong hatred for her.
the men chased my father around and started beating him, they left and my father came after me and i ran away and the forest changed into a house and some of my friends were there, i only recognized beth as being one of them, he was trying to hurt all of us and i remember throwing irons back and forth at him and they all hit him and i just brushed them away when he threw them at me. i remember being on top of him and slamming the iron into his face but it didnt seem to hurt him which was really frustrating. we all ran around the house a bit more throwing various objects and yeah thats when i woke up.

the only thing i liked about the dream was the forest that it was in was absolutely amazing and wow i want to go live there :(

i think its kinda strange that i remember like everything about my dreams so clearly pretty much every single night. and weird things that happen but i guess everyones dreams are weird. mine are pretty normal now because last year i always used to dream about the end of the world and aliens and stuff, which always used to leave me feeling strange for days. it used to be really vivid mystical sort of stuff. blah. i want those ones back.