fucking rage

stupid fucking bitch cunts. all iw anted to do was smack their fucking faces in or fucking kill them. it hink the second option would have been fine. i dont want to be one of these fuckwits that carry a weapon around with them but honestly this is the second fucking time in less than a week that something has happened to my friends and ive been there both times and if i had something, shit would be a whole lot different.

they would be fucking dead.

this skankster bitch.
id gotten into an argument with it beforehand, it had followed us and it pushed me. lex pushed it back and it smacked her one. i fucked raged. i couldnt help it. it had given me a bleeding lip in our earlier fight. i didnt even fucking care but the moment it fucking touched my fucking friends. i had to be held back, i dont even know, before i fucking killed it. it sent me into actual tears of rage. ive never been even that angry before that ive started crying but i did and i kept on crying and crying and people took me away from it trying not to get into some massive fight or whatever and im walking along crying and bleeding everywhere and i dont fucking care im just raaaage and rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaggggggge and RRRAAAGGGEEE!!!!!!!

whatever, i walked out down platform b raging and crying and bleeding, i walked around by myself and sat at some back bit crying for a while before friends came. id texted steph and pretty much as soon as they found out where i was brittany and steph where there with their arms around me. i dont even get how theyd gotten there so fast. this night had been intense. first off there was catching up with beth and talking for like 5 hours about all this deep and meaningful shit that had me wanting my mother. iw as actually fucking saying, i want my mum. and then everything was fine and were at sparks in the park and drinking and saw everyone and then this shit and fucking
hell
fuck

i fucKing wont fucking stand for seeing my fucking friends get hurt especially right in fucking front of me. noone fucking does that!

NOONE FUCKING DOES THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ABSO-FUCKING-LUTELY NOONE!!!

i couldnt stop fucking crying for the rest of the niight up until now cause id like fallen asleep on the floor for who knows how long. my head hurts and my lip hurts and i just want to hold onto something tonight cause wtf fucking im just fucking immensely mad and i cant fucking describe how much rage i felt when i saw her getting hit like that it just... fuck.....

this is going to take me a while to come down from. for fucks sake. NOONE FUCKING FUCKS WITH MY FRIENDS WHEN IM AROUND OR I WILL JUST FUCKING RAGE AND I DONT CARE IF I LOOK FUCKING CHILDISH AND CUTE AND FUCKING WHATEVER ELSE PEOPLE HAVE TOLD ME I LOOK WHEN IM ANGRY IM JUST FUCKING MAD AND YOU SHOULDNT FUCKING MESS WITH THAT SHIT

and i know im a fucking tiny weak bitch and i cant fucking do shit but ill still fucking get insane and fuck it hurts so much but fucki dont fucking care and fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck i want to fucking SCREAM!!!!!!
im going to fucking start using hagathas weight things that i fucing stole from her which are mels i think but what fucking ever who the fuck cares whose they were i have them now and im fucking going to get some fucking punch behind my arms.