Don't come along with me

I cant really be bothered going into much detail with blogs now. Its like so much effort and yeah thats about it. Things are happening, too much, too fast since I last posted whatever the fuck i posted.
I think things are going to be better though. Im still not used to the change.
I have to apologize to someone but i dont know quite what to say. Maybe im sorry i was born or met them or whatever.

I think with some things that never happened, its prob a good thing because if they did then my life would be waaay different. For example last year if something had happened that could have if id spoken, I wouldnt have even known any of my good friends now because i would have never met them. Or even before that, that couldnt have happened because id be somewhere fucking else.

Nevermind. it all gets too stupid if i go back like that. whats done is done kind of thing, although last night i really really fucking wished i would have done something to change how shit turned out, but all that was a year ago. A little more. At least I wasnt drunk. I still even cried a little even though i was sober. I know if id had alchz i would been out and down those stairs having a massive stupid fucking emo time.

Oh well. what the fuck can you do but move on. I might try go back. One day.