Sunday, January 23, 2011
fuck
fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkk im not sure if something is messing with my head or theres actually something wrong with me. im fucked, am i fucked? maybe its the too much drinking, too much drugging, that poison? that fucks with your head? maybe its not and its just me and maybe idk i think thats weird its like an old ive had that feeling before feel but it shouldnt be from anything because what induced all that last time havent had any of but maybe its still there and it was just my head and nothing else? fuck wtf. i think its time to go away..
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrro
okay so ive been sitting on the internet all day playing runescape. i thoguht id post some shit in this since i barely ever seem to anymore.
i dont have too much to say except that ive been haggarding around a lot lately. i love being haggard, its so much fun, so much better than just being a silly fuck that doesnt do anything. its pretty much the best describing word ever.
I like the fact that i have like an other half which im rarely ever seen without. i like the fact that its sad saying goodbye even though we see each other like everyday, i like the fact that we both get sad to the same shit and i know why, i like the fact that we have wayyyyy too many fucked up things in common that just blows our minds everytime we fucking discover new shit. i like the fact that theres someone else just as fucked up as me and weve pretty much created our own little world with all this shit we believe in.
some of these things i dont actually like, infact it makes me really sad. the worst thing is that i know a little something something but IT WONT HAPPEN. well not yet at least. its like sooo close and sooo stupid and sooo FUCK!! and im impatient. but i think it will happen. one day.
one day..
ive gotten a lot better with things like this now also. i dont stress and be all stupid as much. i can control it and be happy.
and i am a happy person now. see i do this little thing called not giving a fuck. it makes life so much easier. i dont get why other people cant just do it. its easy enough. i may have this one little sad bit but i dont show it and i sure as fuck dont go off and cry about it by myself or anything like that. anything thats happened in the past stays in the past. a few people i know need to hammer that into their heads. then maybe theyd be alright as well.
i dont have too much to say except that ive been haggarding around a lot lately. i love being haggard, its so much fun, so much better than just being a silly fuck that doesnt do anything. its pretty much the best describing word ever.
I like the fact that i have like an other half which im rarely ever seen without. i like the fact that its sad saying goodbye even though we see each other like everyday, i like the fact that we both get sad to the same shit and i know why, i like the fact that we have wayyyyy too many fucked up things in common that just blows our minds everytime we fucking discover new shit. i like the fact that theres someone else just as fucked up as me and weve pretty much created our own little world with all this shit we believe in.
some of these things i dont actually like, infact it makes me really sad. the worst thing is that i know a little something something but IT WONT HAPPEN. well not yet at least. its like sooo close and sooo stupid and sooo FUCK!! and im impatient. but i think it will happen. one day.
one day..
ive gotten a lot better with things like this now also. i dont stress and be all stupid as much. i can control it and be happy.
and i am a happy person now. see i do this little thing called not giving a fuck. it makes life so much easier. i dont get why other people cant just do it. its easy enough. i may have this one little sad bit but i dont show it and i sure as fuck dont go off and cry about it by myself or anything like that. anything thats happened in the past stays in the past. a few people i know need to hammer that into their heads. then maybe theyd be alright as well.
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