this song is like fucking amazing, the lyrics like everything she means something, like i dont know how to talk because i am a retard but i get all the references to things in what she says.
even something stupid like, hang onto me forever baby, i could always swim. i reckon its referencing kurt as with every one of his songs, him being a pisces, water star sign which is meaning like her understanding how to love him or some bullshit. becuz its hard when you have a fucked up person with that sign.
maybe i look far too into this or maybe i just love those two so much hahaha but all her songs bro like every single one she sings them with like so much meaning and its amazing that one person can have so much emotion into shit like she does. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee oh courtney love, i fucken love you.

i wanted to write something but idk what to

hmmm im at mums today and tonight probs, old people left for australia, pretty sure i wont be able to stay living at mums though cuz of her house is failing and she has to move, dun even know where she'll go, and im sort of in limbo atm, i dont want to get another flat in this city cuz i want to leave this gay place, i want to wait until like amber or alex or someone gets their shit together and leave cities with them.

im not sure what ambers up to cuz she was gona go get on the benefit but now she says she wants to get a job and idk if shes even doing anything of that like shell prob just bum around and be on her stupid fucking drugs in woolston till she decides she actualy wants to change, cuz i dont see her upto anything atm. if she doesnt want to leave by the time alex finishes his parole im just gonna leave with him. itll be real sad sure if she stays behind but atm im just over everything here and everyone as well.

same old people doing the same old fucking shit every fucking week. really its just all bullshit. theres no point. i cbf with anyone at all lately. well except a few people i talk to theyre okay but most of the cunts atm are just like fuck, get fucked, maybe im just being in a moody cuz of rag. like last friday i just took off from a party, idk why really just couldnt be fucked with it anymore, then didnt talk to anyone the rest of the weekend.

anyone thats fucken known me for a while tho knows that i get like this sometimes. just like me and lisa fighting, its something thats bound to happen a few times a year. i think ive done quite well even, not being like this until mid april. its been a long road since last time i was in a hate everything mood.

i fucked up 96% of my school years. christ thats a bit much, i guess its true though. OH THIS SOUNDS FUN LETS DO IT

[x] Gotten detention.
[x] Gotten your phone taken away.
[x] Gotten in school suspension.
[x] Got sent to the principal's office.
[x] Chewed gum during class.


[ ] Gotten more than 8 tardies.
[x] Didn't do homework over 3 times.
[x] Turned at least 3 projects in late.
[x] Missed school cause you felt like it.
[x] Talked too much and got kicked out of class.

[ ] Got your mom/dad etc. to get you out of school.
[x] Text people during class.
[x] Passed notes.
[x] Threw stuff across the room.
[x] Laughed at the teacher.


[x] Pulled down the fire alarm
[x] Myspace, Friendster, Xanga, etc. on the computer at school.
[x] Took pictures during school hours.
[x] Called someone during school hours.
[x] Listened to an ipod/cd player/mp3 during class.


[x] Threw something at the teacher.
[x] Went outside the classroom without permission.
[x] Broke the dress code.
[x] Failed a class.
[x] Ate food during class.


[x] Gotten a call home.
[ ] Couldn't go on a field trip cause you behaved badly.
[x] Didn't take your stuff to school.
[x] Gotten a detention and didn't go.
[x] Stuck your middle finger at a teacher.
[x] Cursed during class loud enough so the teacher could hear.


[x] Slept in class.
[x] Cursed at a teacher.
[ ] Copied homework.
[x] Felt hungry during class and left to eat.
[x] Got into so many fights.
Total= 32

Times your total by 3
Repost as "I f***ed up ...% of my school years."

maybe the only way to get over my anger problems atm is to go cold turkey..
so it looks like im probably gonna just be hermitting it out for the next fuck knows how long.

but i dont know if thatll make it even worse or ill get fucken sad or happy or what. or if shit will go the way i want it to or if shit will just be dead.

i real need a fucken distraction like, fuck, um gonna save for a ps2 and FFX. that will just consume my days forever and ever and i wont even care.
fuck i dont need this world.

I think im

getting sick of people again