i wanted to write something but idk what to

hmmm im at mums today and tonight probs, old people left for australia, pretty sure i wont be able to stay living at mums though cuz of her house is failing and she has to move, dun even know where she'll go, and im sort of in limbo atm, i dont want to get another flat in this city cuz i want to leave this gay place, i want to wait until like amber or alex or someone gets their shit together and leave cities with them.

im not sure what ambers up to cuz she was gona go get on the benefit but now she says she wants to get a job and idk if shes even doing anything of that like shell prob just bum around and be on her stupid fucking drugs in woolston till she decides she actualy wants to change, cuz i dont see her upto anything atm. if she doesnt want to leave by the time alex finishes his parole im just gonna leave with him. itll be real sad sure if she stays behind but atm im just over everything here and everyone as well.

same old people doing the same old fucking shit every fucking week. really its just all bullshit. theres no point. i cbf with anyone at all lately. well except a few people i talk to theyre okay but most of the cunts atm are just like fuck, get fucked, maybe im just being in a moody cuz of rag. like last friday i just took off from a party, idk why really just couldnt be fucked with it anymore, then didnt talk to anyone the rest of the weekend.

anyone thats fucken known me for a while tho knows that i get like this sometimes. just like me and lisa fighting, its something thats bound to happen a few times a year. i think ive done quite well even, not being like this until mid april. its been a long road since last time i was in a hate everything mood.